Dear you,

You're probably wondering why I'm writing this to you. To be honest, I'm kinda scared to tell, but I don't want to regret it later for not saying anything. Nobody knows what can happen in the next minute. So here I am, writing this to you and keeping my fingers crossed that you'd read this.

I don't know when it all started. You always make me feel butterflies over and over again. Your smile is my favourite scene, and your voice is my favourite sound. I can't explain these feelings about you. I thought it was just a crush. They say that a crush would not last longer than four months. So I waited, waiting for these feelings to go away. Half a year passed, and these feelings are still lingering in my mind, in my heart. Right then, I knew it wasn't just a crush.

Do you remember when I asked a birthday present from you? I really thought you wouldn't. Then, there's this big domo you bought and the little card. The day that I received that gift, was the happiest day of my life. I want you to know that I love it, and I want you to thank you for that.

Long after that, I don't know what had happened. You and I talked less to each other and sometime later, we're not even on speaking terms anymore, like two perfect strangers. I keep thinking why it turned out like this. I want to talk to you, but I'm afraid that you'd give me the cold shoulder. I miss you. I miss talking and chatting with you. I miss the times you called me crazykidd lynn or kubao lynn, even though I dislike you calling me that in the first place. You know, every time you smile, you light up my world, even though I'm not the reason for that smile of yours. There are times I want to forget, but I just can't. Something inside of me just wouldn't let go. I know, I've fall in deep.

Graduation day, I really wished to take a picture with you, but clearly that didn't happen. Thinking back, i regretted not having the courage to tell you face to face. But it's not too late to try now, eh?

This thought occurred to me: "You're the awesomest guy I've ever met and I'm just an ordinary girl. I'm not the smartest, not the prettiest, and there's lots of girls out there far better than me. Just how would this work? There's no way." Life, as we know it is not a fairytale, but I keep going, believing, that somehow it will find a way.

Once you love someone, you can never stop caring about them. I want you to know that I won't forget you and won't stop thinking about you. Maybe someday, I will. But for now, I still forgot to forget you. I know I have to get over this and move on. Silly crushes, I know right? :| Whatever happens, I'll always wish you all the love and happiness in the future. I hope you won't forget me as a friend.

PS: I like you, a lot. I really do.

      Take care, you.

Sincerely, me

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I not even sure why I'm posting this here.

You're probably not gonna read my blog right?

You don't even know.

Sigh. :(